Private Life of A Desolate Guy

Thought

2011-01-16T01:17:00.004+08:00

Feeling Emo

2010-12-07T02:15:00.008+08:00

Once in a while, this emotional state of mind always happens to visit me.

Today everything seemed to be OK, until I got bored with my exam review and started to surf around. I started to think as I surf around. I think of the one I am currently missing. I wish she knew how much I miss her and think of her everyday. I wish I don't have to hide her that I have been missing her so bad, but I have to do this to keep the relationship stable. I hope she is enjoying every moment of holiday time she is having now after having studied so hard for the first semester.

I started to think of my family, I wonder how each of them is doing now. I feel I have been disconnected since my school started busy.

After an hour, without that boring facebook, I ended up no where to go besides visiting this lonely blog. I started to view my older posts. As I read along, my feeling started to fluctuate. Some post remind me of the girl I was wit for a year, remind me of the fun time I had with her. I know I have to stop reading the older post here and remove them before that difficult feeling started to find it way back.

So I left my blog and went to visit other blogger. I found an interesting article from my bestfriend, barbie, and decided to post it here without her permission. I missed my old time with her when we chatted every night, with a very funny and truely friendship way. I missed the time I talked to her like an idiot and how much we were surprised by the character and thought we have in common. Hmm I wonder how would it be better if she didn't go to US and stayed here to chat with me tonight. I hope she is living her life well with her lovely prince in US. I realized once in a life time , you cannot find a second moment that the same thing will happen to you. So it is always a good idea to treasure every moment in our life.

Finally I ended up blank and sleepy. I feel I'm good to sleep for I got alot more work to do tomorrow for my upcoming exam which will end exactly on my birthday.

Good night my lonely blog, good bye my dear visitor if u happen to visit.

A nicely written article from Barbie

2010-12-07T02:08:00.002+08:00

[...]
I happened to read one random article entitled "The Tyranny of Choice" by Barry Schwartz a few days ago. He illustrates how choice overload can lead to uncertainty, anxiety, and perhaps depression. Having more choices are essentially good for those who know exactly what they want, and therefore, having more alternatives is indeed a bless. However, ones still have to spend a great deal amount of time balancing all the pluses and minuses before making their ultimate decision in order to make a good informed decision.

He further divided human's behavior into two different categories, the maximizer and the satisficer. The maximizers yearn for the best out of every decision they made while the satisficers aim for just "good enough", and once they have found what they were seeking for, they would stop looking. The maximizers, on the other hand, feel the need to spend longer time deciding, yet mostly ended up feeling unsatisfied of the decision they made. They have the higher tendency to regret what they chose, and always come up with the thought of "what if?"

We all have to make decisions at one point in life or another, ranging from trivial matters to a crucial life changing ones. We had to choose variety of items to purchase at the stores, be it foods, beverages, clothes, accessories, or perhaps a birthday gift for someone, you name it. We walk from aisle to aisle, stores to stores, and ended up getting something or nothing at all. There are just too many things for us to choose from which has somehow made shopping more difficult and more time consuming than it was before. In fact, choice overwhelming does not just arise at the mall, but almost in every aspect of our lives including future career, friendship, romance- something like which degree should I pursue, What types of friends do I wish to hang around with, who will become my Prince Charming, and would he be the one?

I guess I am a maximizer after all. I always aim for the best, and later feel disappointed when I cannot live up to my own expectation. Maybe i should come up with some sort of boundary like having my ultimate goal set, create a specific and acceptable requirement or standard, and stop looking back on bygones once it has past. I shouldn't be spending as much of my time getting frustrated at little things, not wasting 1 hours just to pick what clothes to wear to the party, 3 hours just to pick one small topic for Language Arts Oral Report, 5 hours or perhaps my whole day just to shop for clothes, and forever just to choose what topic I should write about for my History term paper.

I meant, I don't have all the time in the world to do all these, especially when it comes to something like shopping, clothing, and stuffs. Yes, I need to prioritize what is more important to my life, and what is less. I need to have the ability to distinguish what matters, and what don't. Eliminating unnecessary choices is indeed healthier for my personal well-being, and I should start it from now, and if any of you out there feel the same way I do, I hope you would join this mission together with me :)

P.S. Forgive me if I don't make sense to you as I actually have tons of homework awaiting me yet I am still blogging and goofing off.

P.S.S. Oh, and by the way, I think I know why Albert Einstein decided to wear the same clothes all over and over again lol... because he didn't want to waste his precious time just to choose what to wear everyday since this genius gifted man has more important tasks to do ^ ^ haha...

Word that are hard to say

2010-07-13T02:35:00.001+08:00

Wow, What a smart approach

2010-04-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

Who help love - a Tale

2010-02-23T21:58:00.001+08:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

small thing

2010-02-22T00:06:00.011+08:00

Let her do what she likes, otherwise she will upset or feel being controlled. but then is it spoiling?

hard to define the boundary between this two.

I just want to see her be good at the same time without the image of controlling her.

It is not she bad student or sth but s.time she just like that. Lazy to review until last minute. So let her do whatever she enjoys is what i do.

PS: Understand the 4th line sentence sincerily, don;t be upset ok?

anyway thanks for this one pic love it and love you. ;)

She is so beautiful

2010-02-16T15:36:00.006+08:00

Just an Act???

2010-02-04T20:38:00.004+08:00

Yuki keep making and get herself into trouble.

Yuki upset again yesterday.

Yuki's crush hang out with Yuki's female friend.

Yuki's feel upset and jealous.

Why?

What her crush did with that female friend, just like what he did with Yuki when Yuki and him just know each other.

Yuki feel like, sooner or later, they both will be in love.

This time Yuki will lose her crush~

Space ................................................. Space

2010-02-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

let s.o enjoy her own space freely even I miss her right now. Sleep Tight babe

2010-01-16T01:29:00.003+08:00

What i have learned

2010-01-14T02:25:00.004+08:00

Relationship is not everything. You can also be happy without relationship. sometimes relationship bring headache sometimes it bring fun. But it is different from being single only in degree how much you headache and happy. It seem the degree is higher in both headache and fun.

Sometimes being sweet is so boring.

In bad period, be strong, be calm and be friendly.

Be forgiving, but with limitation

Be caring, but not too much caring. Too much caring also boring.

Don't ask too many question if it is related to personal life...

Exam Result

2010-01-03T18:26:00.011+08:00

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This semester was a tough semester. There were 4 core subjects that were hard to study. I'm happy to find out that i manage to get 1A+ 2A and a B+ for them. I really don't like studying Microprocessor and was surprise that i still could get B+. Hmm compare to the previous semester, there is a small progress in my GPA ^^. i wanna say Thank you to s.o for making me happy and enjoy my life during this semester. Hmm i dunno whether i will be happy again next semester, but i gotta move on.

Next semester will be even tougher...besides studying core subject, I need to do CIDP project during term and i heard pp said it is really difficult.

New year 2010 wish

2009-12-30T17:45:00.002+08:00

I have been good boy this whole year. I have always been kind to people. so pls bless me. I only have one wish this year...

When christmas comes to town

2009-12-25T02:23:00.004+08:00

La, la, la, la.....

I'm wishing on a star

And trying to believe

That even though it's far

He'll find me Christmas Eve

I guess that Santa's busy

Cause he's never come around

I think of him When Christmas Comes to Town

The best time of the year

When everyone comes home

With all this Christmas cheer

It's hard to be alone

Putting up the Christmas tree

With friends who come around

It's so much fun When Christmas Comes to Town

Presents for the children Wrapped in red and green

All the things I've heard about But never really seen

No one will be sleeping on The night of Christmas Eve Hoping Santa's on his way

[Repeat previous two paragraphs]

When Santa's sleigh bells ring

I listen all around

The herald angels sing

I never hear a sound

When all the dreams of children

Once lost will all be found

 That's all I want  When Christmas Comes to Town

That's all I want When Christmas Comes to Town

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Merry Christmas Santa, and everyone :) !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPfX4jXVqL8&feature=related

Year 2 Sem 1 Examperiod

2009-11-11T12:15:00.008+08:00

19 Nov 9am

20Nov 9am,

24 Nov 9am,

25Nov 1pm,

1Dec 5pm.

That my exam schedule.

To my princess : A million thanks for being such a nice girl when we meet last weekend. Your soft and cold hand was really adorable. I like holding it tightly :). Our funny hug is pretty nice thing; it stopped my heart beat n stunt me a while. LOL.

To my other dear reader(s), sorry i will not post anything new until i've done my exam :). Thanks for drop by.

Temporary Disconnection due to Examperiod

2009-11-03T03:00:00.006+08:00

3 Nov, Tuesday 3Am

We agree not to talk to each other until we meet again on Sunday in Singapore. Can't wait XDDD. hehe. But I'm doubt whether I can do that. Lol, well let do it. I know I'm gonna miss her, so let that missing feeling accumulate and throw out the day I meet her.

Well have a nice holiday.

Take care yr sickness.

Love You

Spacing...

2009-10-26T22:07:00.001+08:00

Have you ever experience a feeling of can't do anything? and don't wanna do anything?

-Don't wanna sleep

-Don't wanna study

-Don't wanna play game

-Don't wanna eat

-Don't wanna talk to anyone even my love one

-Don't wanna see anyone even my love one

-Just simply don't know what myself want to do now.

Finally I solve it with a walk under night fresh air...

A journey that changed my life

2009-10-18T18:31:00.006+08:00

We never talked b4 even we studied at the same school and share the same wall [next-to class].

Even one time I met n had dinner with u , I didn't have any interest in u. I did nothing beside saying hello, do u know me? :)), as i normally don't talk much esp to pp i dunno.

(pic, taken from tdsvetlena.blogspot.com)

However at one moment sth happened... Was it a magic that bring us together? Did god see the good thing I done and reward me? It started with my usual habit-- sending song to some of my hi5 friend, "Merry Xmas Mr Lawrence Utada". I sent u that song because I was very happy after returning back from the reunion party that night. Unfortunately It was not full version. So I decided to do more than usual habit. As a result I know yr gmail, accidentally. A day later your friend, mine as well, asked me to add u in my chat ID. I didn't know what she think of. I was hesitate for a while be4 I decided to add u, because I didn't wanna get any bad impression from u. I was invisible as I always. Even after I added u in my list, I was hesitate for a while whether I should talk to u or not. Then my friend bug me to say hello to u, immediately. So I did. "Hello." reply back "Hi". "Not wondering why I add u?" "Well barbie tell you my id". Then my first night talk with u began. I was a little bit reserved, but I did laugh alot and so did u. It ended very late that perhaps it might have made u sick that night.

We continued chatting every night as during that time we were so free. I started to learn more about you. S.time u made me laugh like a stupid person n so did I. I realise how nice and cute u r. That perhaps might be the time I started to like you. It wasn't long that suddenly you were coming to SG for your holiday. It was theoretically impossible to describe how happy i were with you on- a journey that has changed our relationship.

To be continued....

Pic

2009-10-12T21:19:00.001+08:00

My dinner this evening

The Rain Must Fall

2009-07-23T00:28:00.001+08:00

The rain must fall, cuz it can't stay forever in cloud.

life can be strange Good and bad in so many ways And in time you will find That things are not always what they seem
Well I've got something to say But you might laugh, joke or run away Coz I'm awkward and nervous Sometimes I don't say much at all

My First Post_My First Art Piece

2009-01-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

After having quite a long vacation, I'm sort of boring. Don't know what to do beside study, I decide to compose a piece of poem.

At first it was just for fun and short one. But then my uncle said he liked my piece. So I just continue to compose till i finish quite a long one. I hope you are not bored when you read this cuz reading is not as difficult as composing. lolz.
I have divided into section, but actually each section can be combined without losing the rhythm.

Enjoy my art!

និស្សិតនឹកស្រុក (បទពាក្យ ៧)

Introduction:
យប់យន់ស្រទន់ ស្រទាប់ចិត្ត        មេឃមីងងឹត បិទនេត្រា
តារារាយរះ អាកាសា              វាយោវាតា បក់រំភើយ។
ចន្ទជះពន្លឺ ភ្លឹថ្លាថ្លាត់              ពពករសាត់ ផាត់ល្វើយៗ
អង្គុយម្នាក់អែង រែងរហើយ         បេះដូងខ្ញុំអើយ អាល័យទេស។
វាយោវាយោក បោក កាយា        ងើយមើលចន្ទថ្លា ស្អាតល្អម្លេះ
ពន្លឺស្រទន់ ភ្លឺ ពិសេស            ចន្ទអើយហាក់ចេះ យល់ចិន្តា។
បានកើតជាចន្ទសំណាងក្រៃ         ខ្ពស់នៅផុតដៃ ផុតពសុធា
តែគង់រនោចចូលមករា             ខានបានមូលមា ពេញវង់មុខ។

Body:
-Law of nature
គិតទៅធម្មជាតិបង្កើតលោក          អោយស្គាល់ទុក្ខសោកសប្បាយសុខ
អោយមានព្រាត់ប្រាស ជួបមូលមុខ    លំបាកស្រណុក ទុក្ខលាយឡំ។
ម្តងមូលម្តងខ្វះ ផ្លាស់មិនទៀង        ម្តងថ្ងែម្តងភ្លៀង ម្តងព្យុះធំ
ម្តងសើចសប្បាយ ម្តងស្រែកយំ       ម្តងឆ្ងាយឥតជុំ ម្តងកៀកកិត។
ប្រៀបដូចរូបខ្ញុំ ឆ្ងាយកាយា          ឃ្លាឃ្លាតគ្រួសារ មិត្តស្នេហ៏ស្និទ្ធ
ឃ្លាតស្រុកប្រទេស ញាតិឆ្ងាយជិត     រស់ក្នុងជីវិត ចិត្តបញ្ញវន្ត។

-Sentimental to far:
អង្គុយម្នាក់អែង កណ្តែងចិត្ត         អាល័យរលឺក នឺកបែបន់
អោយបានទៅលេងស្រុកទាន់ហន់     អាលធូរស្បើយគ្រាន់ ទាន់ចិត្តគិត។
ឧិទឺកសន្សើម ផ្សើមបេះដូង         អណ្តែតអណ្តូងអណ្តកចិត្ត
ធ្លាក់ធ្លាព្រិចៗ រិចរឺងរឺត            បណ្តាលគំនិតគិតវែងឆ្ងាយ។

-School

ស្រណោះអាសោកស្រណោកគ្រា     អាល័យវេលា ធ្លាប់សប្បាយ
ជាមួយបងប្អូន មិត្តទាំងឡាយ       យំសើចក្អាកក្អាយ កាយកៀកកិត។
ស្រណោះគ្រាទៅបាត់ដំបង         ដើម្បីប្រលង ខាងគណិត
ទទួលជ័យជោគ ជាប់ឈ្នះពិត       គេស្ងើចគំនិត រឺតរាប់អាន។

-Food:

យប់កានតែស្ងាត់ បាត់សំលេង       នឺកគ្រាក្មាំងក្មេង លេងពួនប្រាណ
ស្រាប់ពោះកូរគ្រូកនឺកបើបាន        ម្ហូបខ្មែរមួយចាន មកភ្លក្សមក។
នឺកដល់ការី នំបញ្ចុក              ប្រហើរអាម៉ុក ប្រហុកផ្អក
នឺកម្ជូរស្លឺកម្កាក់ ស្រូបបាយកក       ត្រីងៀតសាច់ក្រក ក្រហមឆ្អៅ។
ប្រហិតត្រីចៀន ក្រលៀនជ្រូកឆា      ម្ជូរស្នឹងត្រីប្រា ឆាមាន់ក្តៅ
មាន់ដុត ត្រីឆ្តោរបណ្តោម្សៅ         កកូរបង់ខ្ចៅ កេសចៀនចួន។
ក្រោកឈរអោយដៃ ស្រមៃសើច      នឹកអស់សំនើច អាសូរខ្លួន
មិនដឹងពេលណា បានភ្លក្សភ្លួន       ម្ជូរគ្រឿង ម្ជូរយួនដូចកាលគ្រា។

-Leaving:

ស្រងេះស្រង៉ោច ខ្លោចដួងចៃ        អារម្មណ៏ស្រមៃ ថៃ្ងជួបជា
ថ្ងៃដើរសប្បាយ ដូចលីលា          ច្រៀងចំអកគ្នា ឥតមានទុក្ខ។
១សែនអាល័យថ្ងៃបែកគ្នា           អ្នកម្តាយសែ្រកលា កូនបានសុខ
វិចអាវខ្ចប់ខោបាយចំណុក          ទ្រូងដូចគេបុក ចុកអួលណែន។
យន្តហោះយន្តហើរ ដើរលើមេឃ     ហោះលឿនដូចផ្លេក ផ្លុងផុតផែន
ទំលុះពពកពត់បត់បែន             រហូតដល់ដែន សិង្ហបុរី។
                     (សូមអានថា សឹងបូរៃ)


The End:
ណ្ហើយល្មមឈប់គិត ដ្បិតចំបែង       អារម្មណ៏បែកផ្សែង រែងពើតផ្សា
រវើ រវាយ ធ្លាយដល់ណា            នាំឈឺកេសា ផ្សាដួងចៃ។
គង់បានវិលវិញជួបខេមរា            ជួបជុំគ្រួសារ អ្នកម្តាយថៃ្ល
មិត្តភក្តិទាំងឡាយ ញាតិប្រុសស្រី      ដូចចន្ទជាថ្មី ពេញភក្រ្តត្រា។
គិតខ្លួនបញ្ញវន្ត ត្រូវឃ្មាតខ្មី           ពុះពារ លកលៃ ប្រឹងសិក្សា
ក្រេបយកចំនេះអោយភ្លឺថ្លា           ត្រលប់កាលណាកសាងជាតិ។

The End

Thanks for reading.

(Quite Long isn't it? Sorry if boring)

To this art work, I would like to dedicate to my whole family and relatives, especially my mum who always support and care abt me in everything, my grandma and two aunties who usually cook delicous food for me.

Thank KhmerBird for motivating me and posting this work in his blog.

Thank Barbie For helping editing some quote.